“I was always an unusual girl.
My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality; just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean.”
~ Lana Del Rey
A year ago I modeled at Light Pro. This photo is literally my very first time seeing Hilton Head Island…sunrise on the beach in a beautiful Alice Andrews designer dress. Magical. Sheila Scott Carroll did my hair,makeup and took this amazing photo. I can’t thank her enough for being there and helping me!
“Darwin may have been quite correct in his theory that man descended from the apes of the forest, but surely woman rose from the frothy sea, as resplendent as Aphrodite on her scalloped chariot.”
~ Margot Datz
Hilton Head is beautiful. I was super happy that I was able to get into the water in this particular dress. After it was wet,it wasn’t as flowy so I’m glad it was captured before hand!
Here’s what the photography scene on the beach looked like 🙂
“The sea is emotion incarnate. It loves, hates, and weeps. It defies all attempts to capture it with words and rejects all shackles. No matter what you say about it, there is always that which you can’t.” ~ Christopher Paolini
I can’t even remember how long we were out that morning. The light and water were just breath taking! I am planning another beach shoot SOON!
After the sunrise shoot we had a few hours to chill and relax before we were supposed to be back to the makeup room to get into our next themes,etc. It was a great resort to chill in. There were hammocks all over the place,awesome food….of course…a beautiful beach!!
My next theme of the day was pinup so since I was one of the first models in the makeup room I grabbed a makeup artist,Pi, and we started on my look. The times were changed on this shoot a few times but eventually I got some images!
After that shoot I crashed until we were to do the nighttime shooting in the bays. A few of us had decided to do steampunk so I was excited. I usually shoot steampunk alone so having friends and possibly getting some group shoots sounded great.
Here’s some of my motley crew 🙂
“You’re Hell’s Angels, then? What chapter are you from?’
‘REVELATIONS. CHAPTER SIX.”
~ Neil Gaiman
And that was my entire weekend of modeling at this workshop…one day. And those are the extent of the photos I got from it. Aside from the ones posted I have exactly four I didn’t post.
This is yet another blog I wasn’t sure if I should write…but in the end it’s MY blog…my feelings and opinions. I’m not going to go into major detail about all the drama surrounding this event prior to me going,when I arrived or all that transpired during the event. I will,at no time,tell you or suggest that you never attend a Light Pro event. This is my experience and my opinions.
I believe events like these are good or suck based on the people involved and in charge. Take from that what you will.
Light Pro is a photography event that was held at Hilton Head last year. I knew a few people involved in prior years and their photos were ok. I usually feel out an event like this. Why should I go? Is it anything I couldn’t just do here in this area? Are the photographers any better? They really needed models though and an escape from the mountains to the sea sounded lovely. I’d be sharing a hotel room…so pretty dang cheap..meeting new people. Great huh? I looked at some photos from past events. They ranged from crap to pretty darn good. I decided to jump. I think,in the end,I just needed a vacation. I got something else.
Basically this was a huge learning experience for me. I play at modeling. I would never tell anyone that “I’m a model.” It’s a hobby,it pays none of my bills. In fact I don’t personally know any career models. We all play and we have a great time at it. For me…it started for self esteem and this is the event that almost killed that for me.
To the best of my knowledge this event wasn’t supposed to happen. Someone who was over the event absconded with the funds and left the other event leader with a bunch of photographers who had paid and no event. They were begging other photographers to come..begging for models. They did the best they could was what I was told,after the fact. It sure didn’t look that way from the cheap seats I got placed in.
The resort was amazing,and I was super excited to be involved. I packed for weeks,no joke. I had totes packed with every kind of costume/boudoir/everyday wear that I was highly encouraged to bring plus fire performance and other props. I used one outfit I brought the whole weekend,no props.They encouraged me to bring all these totes down to the main model room. Later all my stuff would be moved and shuffled about into other people’s stuff…without my permission. I even heard some of the younger girls wore dresses in the pool that weren’t theirs. Some ladies had rented formal gowns for this event. NOT COOL.
So online prior to this event they mentioned morning sunrise shoots on the beach and asked who would be down. I volunteered to do all days,if needed! It sounded so exciting. There were supposed to be nights filled with shooting in the many bays there. I thought of all the different themes I could bring to the event. Neither of these things happened. I was used for one morning shoot…I wasn’t even told I would be doing it until around midnight the night before. WE had to be down in hair and makeup at like 4am. Thanks! I wasn’t asked to do any others or alerted that they needed models. The last day we were told that the morning shoot was cancelled but then later saw that they had used one of the makeup artists as a model because she was “the only model that showed up.” It was a clusterfuck.
So let’s start with my only day of shooting at this event. The first day 🙂
I arrived on time to get my hair and makeup done but everyone was busy. I don’t even think they started on me until there was an hour to spare and a photographer ended up doing it. If I had known this was going to happen I could have done this all myself. I had done nothing to my hair since we had hair and makeup people for that. They ended up barely even fixing the hair because we ran out of time. I was told they couldn’t wait on me to get myself together. I had to beg one of the stylists there and bargain with her to use her curling wand and have her do half my hair as fast as we could. SNOTTY. The photographer ended up doing the hair too and put butterflies in my hair to cover up the general frizz. I was able to wear a beautiful designer dress on the beach…but I felt like garbage. I felt like I had just been emotionally battered.
The pin up photos were taken around four hours after I was done with my hair and makeup. They changed the time of the next shoot THAT many times. I was falling asleep on the floor when they found two photographers interested in shooting me. The bays were just NOT being utilized. That was a recurring theme.
When we showed up to do the steampunk photos…completely ready …there was only one bay shooting. It was filled with teenage girls in go go boots pretending to be Charlie’s Angels. We had to wait until they were done. No other bays were opened in the whole area which was huge. I saw many many photos of that later. I got exactly one photo from our steampunk theme.
The entire next day I sat in the model room. In order to shoot outside of this room photographers in sets of like five had to come “check you out”…or one of the mentors could come in and pick you to model for a class. Basically no one knew you were even available. The same teenage girls were chosen over and over again. The rest of us just got to know each other and drank coffee. There were no windows in this room. I spent a whole day at Hilton Head in a windowless room.
Finally I was chosen to be a model for a class. I was supposed to have hair and makeup done and wear this large parachute dress. I was stoked! It’s so boring to sit all day. After my makeup was done the lady in charge said she didn’t like it so she wanted it redone. They had given us 0 information as to what they wanted to begin with. The makeup artist wasn’t there so another model helped me redo the makeup more natural. So after almost three hours of hair and makeup I put on the dress and was just so thrilled to be getting out of that room. Everyone else who had sat around the room all day with me thought I looked great….literally everyone in the room had helped me get ready,in some way,for this. And they were still gathered around when the lady over the class came in. I was told “No really,you look pretty but we aren’t going to be having this class.” Which I later found was code for…we wanted a different model who isn’t you to model this. Then she basically started pulling at the dress I was wearing…complaining about how it was ripped and she had just bought it. I can’t even tell you how horrifying this was. I was emotionally drained by this point.
This is the only photographic evidence of “The Blue Dress Disaster of 2015” haha. It’s nice to look back and laugh. Everyone else involved was apologized to except me. So..none of that counts. No one cares that my whole entire day was wasted or that I spent 3 hours in makeup that day for nothing. It seems like the people over the event had lost all sense of professionalism and emotional connection to anything except money. Again,I will not go into all of the drama or complaints I heard over the course of that weekend.
After this happened we left the property to go explore Hilton head and then the next day traveled over to Savannah Georgia and had a great time! That saved the weekend. Those are the memories I hold onto.
The fallout from that weekend was even uglier than the event itself. I’ve never seen so much blame get thrown around since maybe high school. It was sad to watch.
Was it worth it? NO
I have very few photos to show for it and again that was to be my payment for taking my money,time and effort to be there. I paid for my hotel,gas and food there. Hilton Head was 6 hours from where I lived. It was quite a trip to get there…time off of work…packing for weeks. The images posted were fine…just like I had seen before…some bad…some good…a very few great. In the end I mainly kicked myself because I knew what it would be photo wise. You could tell which models they actually cared about being there. They were the only ones used. It took a toll emotionally. I was told that they told photographers that had asked about me…that I had left. I was gone from the resort exactly six hours one day out of the whole event. No one ever scheduled me for a class,a shoot…anything. No one contacted me about possible doing one. They just decided to say I was gone. Perhaps I was never there….
I didn’t expect to be in the middle of a business going downhill. I should,as a model,never have even been aware of that.
It was a kick in the ego and it took me a while to get over it. It would take me hours to write everything that happened and how badly I felt for others that had shit go wrong for them too. I wasn’t the only one that left with battle scars,trust me. BUT after a while I realized it was the events loss and most of the issues were bad communications,childishness and unprofessionalism. There is nothing I can do about that. I had amazing skills to offer and still do. I do wish the best of luck to everyone going forward. There are no hard feelings,even if some hurt ones do remain. I wish this event the best,if not just for the models involved that deserve to be respected and the photographers there to actually learn.
“You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is like an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.”
~ Mahatma Gandhi